Today I heard one of the hardest things I've had to swallow in a while..And it's not even anything that is set in stone yet. Beth got a job. In Springfield. I'll have to admit that it was the LAST thing that I was expecting to slip out of her mouth this morning. (and beth, no one but you and like 2 other people read this and they dont know youuu...) When she told me, my mouth just dropped. I dont think i realized that she really did have a job..as a volleyball coach for that matter! lol. I thought about it alll day. I tried to act like everything was great, but i honestly fought tears all day long! It seems like something so stupid to get upset over, but I guess I just hate to think about not being able to see my Best friend for weeks/months at a time. By the time we left Roans Creek and stopped to get gas, I finally went ahead and broke down and complained that she couldn't leave and that i would totally go freako when they moved and blah blah blah... I felt so insanely stupid for crying over something so silly because the circumstances could be so much worse, but it scares me to death to think that I could lose one of the most important people in my life. And that's the crazy thing! I'm not even losing her! When I got in the car to go home, I was fighting tears yet again. I didn't want anyone to notice that anything was wrong and start asking questions. I got home and headed straight to the bedroom where i grabbed a little prayer book that i keep in my drawer called " The Little Prayer Book For Women". I flipped to the Friendship section where this part of Proverbs 17:17 caught my eye " A friend loves at all times..." Aha! thats why I was having such a terrible time dealing with this. "A friend loves at all times..." Beth loves me all the time. No matter what stupid mistake I make, or crazy things I may say, she loves me. For Hannah.
Sooooo....I'm extremely sorry for anyone who was excited for some hunky dorey great happy ray of sunshine update. I just couldn't do it tonight. And I still feel extremelyyyyyy stupid for writing a whole entire blog about something that can't be changed.
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Hannah--You aren't dumb for crying over it....I've been twisted up about it for months and months and I didn't even know what was gonna happen then. But no matter what, even though time and distance do change things with most people, we can make it. We've been making it for years. Nothings can break apart such a great friendship. I love you always...don't forget
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